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ZAFROGZEN Posted on June 15, 2022 by zafrogzenJuly 2, 2022

6/29/2022 Unconscious Consciousness. Last Sunday, getting ready to make a bowl of my traditional rice and veges with adzuki beans, after meditations in my teahut, I opened an upper cupboard in my trailer. Apparently a glass lid on a sauce pan was leaning against the cupboard door. When I reached up and pulled it open the heavy glass lid flew out like a frisbee.

My hand shot out sideways and grabbed it in midair.

If I’d had to think about it first I couldn’t have possibly caught the lid before it hit something. That kind of thing happens to me a lot. I’ve had several close calls, especially while driving, where I managed to barely avoid serious accidents with quick, completely unconscious reactions.

I believe such abilities are heightened through meditation practice. When individual thoughts and the conditioned mind, which separate us from everything else, are quieted and put aside in meditation and emptiness, then a larger, unconscious, more universal mind takes over and the entire world becomes a friend and helper. To quote the Bhagavadgita in the chapter on meditation —

One’s own self is the friend of that Self by whom the lower self is conquered; on the other hand, that very Self, of one who has not conquered their lower self, behaves inimically, like one’s own enemy.

Tapping into that larger unconscious Self makes it easier to get into a “flow state” or “zone,” where you’re completely immersed in each action you’re taking and everything else drops away in total concentration and ecstatic clarity. Whatever you’re doing comes together effortlessly, each element falling into place at just the right time, without having to think about it.

I’ve had projects that flowed together like that and other times when everything seemed to be putting up a fight. When that happens, the best thing to do is retreat, and either do something else, or sit down and meditate until all resistance dissolves.

6/24/2022 Selected Lines from the Song of the Grass Hut

By Shitou Xiqian
Translated by Taigen Dan Leighton and Kazuaki Tanahashi

I’ve built a grass hut where there’s nothing of value.
After eating, I relax and enjoy a nap.

Though the hut is small, it includes the entire world.
In ten feet square, an old man illumines forms and their nature.

A shining window below the green pines—
jade palaces or vermilion towers can’t compare with it.

Living here he no longer works to get free.
Who would proudly arrange seats, trying to entice guests?

Turn the light around to shine within; then just return.
The vast inconceivable source can’t be faced or turned away from.

Let go of hundreds of years and relax completely.
Open your hands and walk, innocent.

Thousands of words, myriad interpretations,
are only to free you from obstructions.

If you want to know the undying person in the hut,
don’t separate from this skin bag here and now.

“Grass” construction is a form of thatch which can make structures that are quite substantial. Shitou’s hut was likely more than “ten square feet,” which is not large enough to lie down in, much less live in. My teahouse/meditation hut is 9 feet by 6 feet, or three 3 x 6 foot tatami mats, the smallest standard sized teahouse.

The Japanese teahouse is based on the romantic tradition of the hut in the wilderness where Chinese recluses retired from the world to meditate. Such huts were built from the simplest, readily available, local materials. I put together my rustic hut from local redwood board and batten, with shoji window screens cut from pellon interfacing (used in sewing) from a local yardage store, more durable than rice paper from Japan. The walls are modular, built separately, so they can be unscrewed and taken apart for transport. It was originally sited hanging on a steep bank over the San Lorenzo River in the Santa Cruz Mountains and now rests in a secluded area among pine trees and Rhododendrons on the North Coast of California.

6/23/2022 Pranayama. In the sixties I started doing pranayama (yogic breathing exercises), along with hatha yoga and intensive meditation, and I’ve continued to incorporate various pranayama exercise into my daily meditation routine.

I do at least one round of alternate breathing (Nadi Suddhi), or nerve purification, with practically every period of sitting meditation (the method is shown near the end of meditation basics). I’ve found alternate breath control to be especially helpful at the beginning of meditation to calm overactive discursive thinking.

I was skeptical of the practice of just breathing from only one side to activate specific subtle nerve channels (nadi) said to exist on either side of the spine, in order to control “prana” or psycho/sexual energy — the right nostril side (pingala) being the extroverted (Active), solar nadi and the left nostril side (ida) the introverted, lunar nadi.

Then I came across a  2019 review of scientific evidence on the effects of yogic breath control (pranayama) that appears to confirm yogic teachings regarding alternate breathing, as well as numerous benefits of pranayama in general. According to research, Nadi Suddhi breathing just through the left nostril stimulates the parasympathetic system and a general relaxation response, along with a reduction in blood pressure and heart rate, whereas right nostril breathing does the opposite, activating the sympathetic nervous system’s “flight or fight response,” along with an increase in both blood pressure and heart rate.

6/22/2022 Meditation and Self. According to recent research into Mind-body practices and the self, “yoga and meditation do not quiet the ego, but instead boost self-enhancement.” That statement implies that meditation and yoga enhance the ego. But I think that’s misleading. Both Mahayana (including zen) and Vedantic systems of meditation, posit two layers of self —  a small, individual self and a big, universal Self. Or as Suzuki Roshi taught, “small mind and big mind.”

Most individuals who are considered egotistical are actually insecure, with fragile egos in need of reinforcement. By contrast those who appear selfless have strong, secure egos. Why? Because their small self/mind has been subsumed to some degree by big mind. Thus meditation and yoga appear to strengthen the individual ego when it is actually “lost” in a larger, more universal self.

As indicated in my earlier blogpost Sameness and Difference below, according to the Lankavatara Sutra the small self/mind and the big Self/mind are neither separate or not separate (the same or different). However, the big Self/mind essentially supersedes the small self/mind in the long run, like waves returning to the ocean.

6/21/2022 Enlightened Mind. The mind of enlightenment is always present in everyone, equally, without exception. But it usually goes unrecognized, even though it is sometimes spontaneously experienced. Without understanding or training it isn’t cultivated. Thus it’s neglected and covered by worldly concerns and myriad conditions. It’s been compared to a priceless jewel lost in a dung heap. When there’s a real glimpse, it isn’t soon forgotten. Like losing a valuable gem in a crowded marketplace, a frantic search begins.

Taking up meditation practice, day by day over decades, it becomes more familiar. In the refuge of inner silence and emptiness it shines forth. Everything is resolved in an instant. All is forgiven.

The mind of enlightenment is the only stable source of happiness. Every other happiness is impermanent and fleeting, sometimes even changing to its opposite.

6/20/22 Pursuit of Happiness. About 15 or 20 years ago I wrote a somewhat rambling piece for a local magazine titled “This Present Moment.” A typically zen line I came up with, which the editor liked so much he featured it in an enlarged excerpt, was — “If happiness is getting what you want, then the way to be happy, instantly, is to want what you get.” I thought I was pretty clever, until I happened to listen to a tape of a talk by Ajhan Amaro, a Theravada Buddhist Monk living at a monastery nearby, in which he repeated the exact same line word for word. Although he didn’t attribute the saying, I assumed he’d read my article, and I was flattered that he would repeat something I’d written. Then I saw the date on the tape — it was apparently made shortly before the magazine came out. So I don’t know if that saying is original or not, or where it came from. But it doesn’t really matter, it’s true regardless — wanting what you get is crucial to happiness.

It can also be difficult sometimes.

This morning my cat, with a little help from my not paying attention, managed to break an irreplaceable plate I was very fond of. I have to admit it was a bit of a struggle not to let it spoil my mood.

But I persevered. And after a few minutes I let it go. Everything is impermanent I told myself. It was just another reminder that my 80-year-old body wasn’t going to last much longer either, something I don’t contemplate much, but that I thought maybe I ought to.

Then one of my renters called to say the new water heater I’d just installed a few days prior, in a cramped space under his counter, had stopped producing hot water. Oddly enough that wasn’t as difficult to swallow as the cracked plate, since it presented a challenge, and I pride myself on keeping the place up and providing a nice living space for someone. I also knew there was a good chance I could find the problem and fix it, which I did shortly after driving over there.

That afternoon my old walk-behind mower broke down mowing the large over-grown back yard and I had to spend precious time working on it in the hot sun. It was then that the multiple meditation periods I’d done the day before really kicked in. I was overcome with happiness just to be there, lying on the grass, sweating and awkwardly reaching under the mower, even with my sore shoulder. I was happy. Even blissful.

Afterwards, when I turned on the drip system I’d laid to a bunch of Rhododendrons, I discovered the mower had mangled one of the drip lines and I had to squeeze new pieces back together with my old stiff hands. But I was still really happy. Why? It wasn’t any sort of mental gymnastics. Nothing special. It was just myself, being myself. Completely. In the present moment. Nothing else required.

6/19/2022 Innocence. It’s Sunday evening and I just returned from my weekly meditation retreat in my little teahouse/meditation hut in the woods near here. Such a beautiful day on the North Coast of California! It was all I could do not to work in the garden instead of sitting zazen all day. As often happens I got sleepy around 3:00 o’clock so I lay down on the tatami for one period and took a brief nap. I awoke and went back to meditating with renewed focus. Before my nap the 25 minute periods of zazen seemed to drag on forever, and I kept glancing at the timer, but after the nap my mind was suddenly clear and open and the time flew by. Amazing.

As is my habit I’d made a bowl of macha (powdered green tea) when I first arrived in the morning. Then I threw the I Ching. I got Hexagram 25, Innocence. It’s not one of my favorites because the judgement says, If someone is not as he should be, he has misfortune. I’m rarely “as I should be” (innocent). However, there was a change in the second line which read, If one does not count on the harvest while plowing, nor on the use of the ground while clearing it, it furthers one to undertake something. This reminded me that past and future have no real existence and that I shouldn’t think I need to work really hard at meditation from now until I breakthrough to complete enlightenment in some distant future, because the enlightened mind is always ever-present (even if I’m only occasionally aware of it). All it requires is to be innocent of such thoughts and completely present right here in this instant.

Afterwards in my little trailer nearby, when I made my traditional beans and rice dinner, with vegetables from the garden, my mindfulness continued, along with a blissful sense of well-being.

6/18/20202222 Hatha Yoga and the Full Lotus. I first encountered the word “Yoga” when I read Swami Vivekananda’s Raja Yoga as a teenager in the 1950’s. It was only later that I discovered there are numerous different types of yoga, including hatha yoga, which is what most people today identify with the term yoga — probably because yoga teachers in the West tend to concentrate almost exclusively on the physical postures (asana) of hatha yoga.

In the late sixties, at the age of twenty-six, I retreated to an isolated shack beside a pond in the foothills of the Sierras to devote myself to meditation. In order to get my body to sit comfortably in the full lotus, I took up the practice of hatha yoga. Unlike today, with yoga studios almost everywhere, hatha yoga classes were very rare in those days. So I read the few books on the subject that were available and started experimenting with the physical postures on my own. The asana that I found to be the most helpful for getting into a full lotus is the head to knee forward bend or “Janu Sirsasana.”

To do the head to knee pose, sit upright, flat on the floor, with both legs straight out in front of you. Pull one foot back towards your groin, with the bent leg on the floor and the sole of the foot against the inside of the opposite thigh.

Keeping the back straight reach forward over the the extended leg with both hands. Be sure to maintain the natural curve of the low back. With the inbreath stretch out towards the front foot to eventually grasp the big toe. On the outbreath relax the torso downwards, the head going towards the knee, with the aim of touching the forehead to the straight knee and the elbows to the floor on either side. Continue stretching and relaxing for several deep in and out breaths before switching sides.

To make the knees more flexible for the full lotus, raise the the bent leg and place the foot over the opposite thigh, as in the half lotus, keeping the knee on the floor. Then bend forward again as before, stretching and relaxing with in and out breaths, alternating which leg is on the opposite thigh and which is straight out in front. If the pose is repeated two or three times on both sides, you should find that with each repetition you’re able to bend forward and downwards more easily and the bent leg will become more flexible.

Actually sitting in the half or full lotus, gradually extending the time, is the best way to get the body used to sitting like that, but the head to knee pose is wonderful for loosening up the hips and knees in preparation.

When sitting in the half lotus with either leg on top is comfortable, you can progress to the full lotus. Place a foot on the opposite thigh and then very carefully bend the other leg in and lift it over and onto the opposite thigh in the full lotus. If possible, alternate which leg is on top, gradually extending the time. Gently reverse the process when coming out of the full lotus.

A variation of the head to knee forward bend is the Maha Mudra, which is used, along with special breathing exercises, to stimulate kundalini and control sexual energy. After you bring one foot back towards the groin you put both hands on the floor and lift yourself up slightly, then slide forward over the the foot until the heal rests under one side of the perineum.

Note — There is a “Mahamudra” tradition in Tibetan Buddhism that is probably not connected to the above Maha Mudra.

6/17/2022 Sameness and Difference. In the Lankavatara Sutra, right near the beginning, the Buddha states — Thus, Mahamati, if the intrinsic aspect of our repository consciousness and the unfolding aspect of consciousness were separate, the repository consciousness could not be its cause. But if they were not separate, the cessation of the unfolding aspect of consciousness would also mean the cessation of repository consciousness  And yet its intrinsic aspect does not cease. Thus, Mahamati, what ceases is not the intrinsic aspect of consciousness, only its karmic aspect. For if the intrinsic aspect of consciousness ceased, Mahamati, that would be no different from the nihilistic views proposed by followers of other paths.

In the popular metaphor of water and waves — they are neither separate, nor not separate. If they were separate, water could not contain waves. But it does. Hence they are not separate. And yet if they were really not separate, when the waves ceased, the water would also cease. But the water remains, even when the waves cease.

When it is free of the unfolding and karmic aspects of consciousness, the “repository consciousness” is known as the tathagata-garba (womb of the Buddha) or simply the Buddha Mind.

In the next paragraph of the Lankvatara, the Buddha states, Mahamati, the followers of other paths claim that when the grasping of an external world ceases, the continuity of consciousness also ceases. But if the continuity of consciousness ceased, that continuity which has no beginning would also cease.

This sounds a lot like eternalism, unless it’s remembered that when the “unfolding aspect of consciousness” ceases, so do all distinctions, such as unfolding and ceasing.

6/16/2022 Late Night Meditations and Blood Pressure. After a lifetime of sleeping like a baby (or a teenager), when I turned sixty I started waking up in the middle of the night after about four hours and I’d have trouble getting back to sleep again. Now, instead of fighting it, I get out of bed, don an ample terrycloth robe with a monk’s hood, and sit down (by the heater in winter) and meditate for two hours (four 25 minute periods of sitting with 5 minutes of walking meditation in between) before going back to sleep for another three or four hours.

I’ve come to savor those meditations in the peace and quiet of the dead of night. Combined with a session before bedtime and again in the morning I can easily reach my goal of three hours of zazen a day. Apparently that’s what it takes for me to continue experiencing those delicious moments of spontaneous insight. While the insights are not as exuberant as they once were, they are deeper and more lasting — although I have yet to reach stability and continuity, it that’s even possible.

Lately, I’ve been occasionally checking my blood pressure with a handy little electronic tester. When I take it just before my late night meditation it’s normal, but right afterwards it’s as much as twenty points lower for the top number and 10 points lower for the other number. I don’t know if that’s a good thing. It’s almost too low, although I don’t have any symptoms of low blood pressure, like dizziness or feeling faint. My daytime meditation sessions also produce a drop in blood pressure, but not as dramatic — only a few points lower after meditating. It does show that its having an effect on my organism, a least temporarily.

Meditation is often touted as some sort of cure-all, but I think it’s been oversold. Most folks who start meditating give it up before very long. I’ve stuck with it for almost 60 years out of an insane need to understand this life, where we come from and where we go. It turns out that the answers are intuitive and subjective, and unless one is a teacher or writing books, and making a career of it, it’s hard to justify all the time and effort. I don’t blame those who quit after a while. It’s a long hard path, with little pay-off in the currency of this world. Still, I don’t regret a moment of it.

6/15/2022 The Lankavatara Sutra. My first copy of the Lankvatara was the “epitomized version” by Dwight Goddard which I read and reread in the early sixties while living in the Haight Ashbury. It’s based on D.T. Suzuki’s version, translated from a 1923 sanskrit recension, or composite. Why Suzuki would choose what is obviously an inferior version to translate into English, when there were good Chinese translations available, is a mystery to me. He did something similar with his translation of an inferior version of the Awakening of Faith, another seminal Mahayana Buddhist text. I think that unlike some translators, such as Thomas Cleary, who are only good at translating, and falter (in my opinion) when they go off on their own, D.T. Suzuki was at his best when writing original material rather than translating texts into English. Cleary also has a translation of the Lankavatara (only available on Kindle) which I have yet to read, but that sounds very similar to Suzuki’s.

Goodard’s version of the Lankavatara, despite being “epitomized,” is still plenty complex and abstruse, but simpler and more accessible than D.T. Suzuki’s translation, upon which it was based (with Suzuki’s blessing). It hammers home the basic message of the Lankavatara — that everything is an illusion, or “mind only,” and that the truth can only be experienced through personal realization and cannot be expressed in words.

Lately I’ve been “studying” (one doesn’t easily just read the Lankvatara) the comparatively recent translation by Red Pine. I put off buying it for some time because I was skeptical that a bearded American from Port Townsend Washington was up to such a daunting task. But I’ve been pleasantly surprised, to say the least. Red Pine’s translation from the most popular Chinese version, which was probably the same one that Bodhidharma recommended as the only text his disciple would need, is surprisingly different than what D.T. Suzuki came up with — one obvious difference being the translation of a central concept in the Sutra that is said to be the basis of an illusory perception of reality, that Suzuki apparently translated as “discrimination” and Red Pine translates instead as “projection.” I think that both words are meant to describe how our conceptual mind creates a manageable reality from the constantly changing, chaotic input of the senses. The Sutra emphasizes that it’s those mental discriminations and projections that prevent us from seeing our true nature.

I’ll probably combine this commentary with others, to make a separate section for book reviews.

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TEACHERS

ZAFROGZEN Posted on April 1, 2022 by zafrogzenApril 17, 2022

Youthful Folly has success.

It is not I who seek the young fool;

The young fool seeks me.

 

I Ching

When I was living in San Francisco’s Haight Ashbury in the 1960’s, a fellow showed up at my door with a manuscript  entitled “How to Meditate.” He heard I was into meditation and wanted me to read what he’d written.

I asked him how long he’d been practicing. “Two months,” he replied.

The desire to teach after practicing meditation is not unusual. I’m not above such behavior myself, although the longer I practice the less sure I am that I want to assume responsibility for instructing others on a subject I have yet to completely master myself. Regardless, I still can’t resist the urge to pontificate, even when my advice has not been sought — and here I am, writing about it again.

Almost all my experience with teachers (or “masters” if you prefer) has been within the zen school of Buddhism, a sect in which teachers play a significant role and around whom there has developed a special tradition and mythos.

It should be noted that I’m not a teacher myself, nor am I currently training with one. In fact I’ve never really been a committed “disciple” of a particular teacher. That’s partly because the first teacher I practiced with, Shunryu Suzuki, died rather early, and frankly, after him other teachers have inevitably seemed lacking by comparison — either too intellectual, too undisciplined, too egotistical, or whatever. But I have trained and practiced with many different zen teachers over the years, almost all of whom are also now deceased.

Suzuki interpreted a lack of commitment to a specific teacher and a formal religious group to be the result of an excess of self-importance and conceit, since such a commitment entails a degree of voluntary dependence and subjugation of ego. While there’s certainly some truth to that assertion, my own reticence is also the result of a general distrust of authority figures and an idealization of democracy, as well as a certain ambivalence in regard to the actual form of zen that has been transported to these shores from Japan.

Aside from meditation (zazen), the basic ingredients of Zen Buddhism are a teacher (Buddha), the dharma (teaching), and a sangha (fellowship of practitioners). The “dharma” is more than just a teaching as recorded in books and sutras, it’s seen as the Mind of Buddha, the “true form of no-form, transmitted outside of scriptures and beyond words or phrases.” It’s said to have been passed down from master to master, Buddha to Buddha, since the historical Buddha, Shakyamuni, bequeathed the “dharma eye” to his disciple Mahakasypa more than two thousand years ago on Vulture Peak in India.

Most scholars consider an unbroken line of dharma transmission, extending from the original Buddha to teachers in the zen school about a thousand years later, to be a myth manufactured to lend legitimacy to Zen Buddhism and its teachers. But in practice, whether or not it’s a physical fact of history is irrelevant. Apparently the dharma transcends past, present and future, as well as all other conceptualizations and projections. It’s an exceptionally slippery item, that can’t even be said to exist in the usual way most objects of awareness are said to exist.

Thus the dharma isn’t really “transmitted,” like passing a basketball from one teammate to another. Rather, the teacher simply verifies that the student has actually experienced the truth of what has always been within everyone, without exception. The only difference, which is huge, is whether it has been fully realized.

A teacher is usually considered indispensable (especially by teachers themselves). But, although they are not absolutely necessary, a teacher and a sangha can give rise to a meditation practice with depth and commitment, which would otherwise be halfhearted and superficial. Good teachers give vital feedback, correcting the student and pointing out the way with encouragement and inspiration.

One of the unique features of zen practice is “dokusan” or “sanzen,” personal meetings between student and teacher. In schools that use koans, “public cases,” to address issues encountered in meditation and stimulate intuitive understanding and breakthroughs, such meetings are obligatory — brief, formal encounters several times a day during meditation retreats, usually with the teacher saying, in effect, “no, no, more zazen.”

Since words and concepts cannot adequately express the insight that comes with long practice, genuine realization needs to be confirmed by someone who has already received verification in the past from another similarly enlightened teacher. In other words, in zen, it takes one to know one.

Such a system of mind to mind, face to face, accreditation and empowerment, while imperfect, is preferable to the alternative — where anyone with sufficient charisma can set up shop as a Zen Master, even if their actual insight is still undeveloped. Then they are not only fooling themselves but others as well.

Even with relatively accomplished teachers who have been given authorization and “transmission,” problems can arise, as we’ve seen with the scandals involving teachers who took advantage of their position to sexually or financially exploit followers.

Buddhism developed in feudalistic societies where the authority of masters and rulers was absolute and unquestioned. Zen Buddhism was imported to the West basically unchanged. Even the liturgy is often left untranslated and chanted in Japanese.

When such cultural accretions are combined with the contemporary worship of celebrity, things can really get out of hand. As word spreads, a teacher’s reputation feeds on itself, and his persona takes on ever more mythic proportions.

Disciples are encouraged to view the Master as the Buddha Himself. Criticizing him or pointing out his mistakes is discouraged. I’ve been amazed at the lengths some students go to explain away their teacher’s shortcomings. When he does something stupid or corrupt it’s a “teaching” to cure his followers of “attachments.” He can do no wrong.

It’s claimed that the outsized respect accorded Zen Masters is not about their individuality but is directed at the “Dharma” which they hold in their persons. But separating the two can be tricky. It’s also said that without the aura of reverence surrounding teachers, students wouldn’t take them seriously enough to follow their instructions.

I recently read one zen teacher claim that transgressive teachers were just not fully enlightened — the implication being, not only that he is, but that there’s such a thing as an enlightenment so complete that it erases all the individual warts and wrinkles, desires and bad habits.

For the most part, the first generation of zen teachers in the West were from Asian countries. Given their cultural and racial characteristics it was easy to view them as special and different from us regular folk. Now that many of the current crop of teachers are not so foreign (once their robes are off), it’s easier to see them simply as ordinary individuals whose extensive practice and experience in meditation equips them to guide students on the path to personal realization.

There’s also been a trend towards more democratization in zen. The San Francisco Zen Center is a good example. After it’s celebrated founder died, his designated successor was accorded the same deference, which he managed to abuse in dramatic fashion. After considerable turmoil they evolved into a more democratic organization with rotating abbots and multiple teachers.

I got involved with one zen center shortly after the teacher, for personal reasons, left the center. His followers reminded me of a litter of whining kittens who had been abandoned by their mother. But along with a few others, I saw it as an opportunity to establish a truly democratic sangha. One member who was a wood worker even made a round altar for the middle of the zendo (meditation hall) to replace the one-sided traditional altar. In lieu of talks by the teacher, we invited various other teachers to speak. Since the center had a nice piece of property, with a good sized zendo and a house for residents, we were like a rich widow with many suitors. We attracted a remarkable array of teachers and gurus from various traditions to speak at the center. One Korean zen teacher even felt obliged to bring his own elevated platform to his talks, rather than sit at the same level as the rest of us.

However, without a teacher to bring everyone together, factions and discord developed, along with a subtle tension as some individuals vied to position themselves as leader and teacher. Eventually the experiment was abandoned and we asked a larger center in the same school to send a transmitted teacher to take over. When she arrived, most of the older members of the group, myself included, promptly left. But with a teacher in charge, before long that zen center was thriving better than ever, with many new younger members joining the sangha.

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THE ZEN

ZAFROGZEN Posted on February 12, 2022 by zafrogzenApril 8, 2022

Yun-men said to the assembly of monks, “See how vast and wide the world is! Why do you put on your seven-piece robe at the sound of the bell?”

With Joshu Sasaki Roshi, Rohatsu sesshin, Mount Baldy 1986

Meditation, and zen in particular, has occupied more of my time and energy than any other subject. Practically the only books I read are zen books or Buddhist Sutras, (some repeatedly), usually in bed before falling asleep at night.

Despite this seeming obsession with a particular religious sect, I’ve never taken even the most elementary lay precepts or vows, much less ordained as a zen monk or priest (although I have come close a few times).

My preoccupation has always been with what I consider the heart of zen, the vital source around which all of its other manifestations revolve — namely “zazen” or meditation. The robes and rituals, the writings and Koans, the teachers and traditions, all flow from the simple practice of sitting meditation.

When I was a teenager, in the late fifties and early sixties, books on zen started to become available. The first one I read was “Zen and the Art of Archery,” by Eugen Herrigel, a German professor of philosophy who spent six years in Japan as a student of one of Japan’s great Kyudo (archery) masters. Herrigel wrote about how he came to some understanding of zen through the practice of Archery.

At about the same time “The Way of Zen,” by Alan Watts came out, which I enthusiastically devoured. Shortly after reading his book I met Mr Watts himself when he spoke to a small group of us in a classroom at my college. He was still a proper Brit, impeccably dressed and dignified, but already a brilliant lecturer whose nimble intellect could weave subtle concepts in startling ways.

Watt’s popular primer was soon followed by D.T. Suzuki’s more scholarly and authoritative writings, notably “Essays in Zen Buddhism” and “A Manual of Zen Buddhism.” Reading his description of Satori, or zen enlightenment experience, I had a sudden insight myself, which only wet my appetite for more.

D.T. Suzuki and Alan Watts introduced Zen to the West and paved the way for the teachers and practice that would arrive not long afterwards from Japan. But, like many early writers, they romanticized zen considerably and it’s that idealized version of zen and zen masters that first captured my imagination. It’s a zen that’s spontaneous and iconoclastic, even irreverent, and radically egalitarian, where everyone is equally possessed of Buddha nature.

That romantic view of zen eventually runs into the actual practice of Zen Buddhism, which is highly disciplined, formal and hierarchical, with a tradition that has been passed down from generation to generation for more than a millennium — a tradition centered on prolonged periods of rigorous zazen, preferably executed in the full lotus posture.

When I began sitting with Shunryu Suzuki in San Francisco in 1965 the practice was straightforward, consisting primarily of zazen and an occasional talk by Suzuki. He emphasized the “way-seeking-mind,” with urgent exhortations to practice zazen “as if your hair is on fire.”

Suzuki Roshi pretty much fit my conception of what a zen master should be — humble and humorous, yet highly disciplined and dedicated, with a single-minded attention to what was happening in the present moment. As one of his students said later, “Whatever it was he had, we wanted it.” In his presence enlightenment seemed within reach.

My own meditations, which had been short and sporadic, received a huge boost after I started sitting with Suzuki. Every morning when I first got out of bed, and every evening before going to sleep, I sat upright in the half lotus and meditated for the length of time it took a stick of incense to burn down (about half an hour).

What impressed me was the simplicity of zazen. Here was something that one could actually “do,” a remarkably concrete and physical practice that opened up an inner realm of inexpressibly profound experience. All it required was the zeal to persevere through occasional boredom and persistent discomfort (no small matter).

There’s a direct cause and effect relationship between time spent in zazen and enlightening experiences. Such sudden “openings” do not necessarily occur during sitting meditation, but can happen anytime. As Kobun, another Japanese zen teacher I used to sit with, liked to say, “Enlightenment is an accident, and zazen makes you accident prone.”

Practicing with a teacher and a group (sangha) is crucial, at least in the beginning. It’s unlikely that most people could develop the perseverance and disciplined practice necessary to make progress on their own without some real experience of the unique environment encountered in an established zen center or temple. This is especially true of longer retreats or seven day “sesshins,” where silent sitting and walking meditation continues daily from early morning til night. There usually comes a time (about the second or third day of sesshin) when resistance and resentment surface and the whole endeavor appears absurd. At that point, without the support of fellow practitioners, the urge to quit is likely to be overpowering.

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YOU CAN THINK WHATEVER YOU LIKE

ZAFROGZEN Posted on October 13, 2018 by zafrogzenDecember 6, 2019

“All that we are is the result of what we have thought: it is founded on our thoughts, it is made up of our thoughts.”                                                                                                                                                         Dhammapada

I doubt it occurs to most people that they could control their minds. Someone who’s angry or upset, even if they’re miserable, is not going to react well to being told that they don’t have to be that way, that they only think they do. In fact they’re likely to argue in favor of their misery, saying so and so did this or said that, or such and such happened, and therefore they have no choice but to feel the way they do.

In theory at least, we are free to think whatever we want, or not to think anything at all. The natural condition of the mind is clarity and openness, like empty space. But that original clear awareness gets lost under the weight of habitual reactions and patterns of thinking that have been acquired over time.

Wrestling with thoughts, analyzing them and trying to change or eliminate them, is exhausting and usually leads to even more thinking. Simply letting go of thoughts, ignoring them as they come up, is more effective — as anyone who meditates eventually discovers.

It’s said that it’s natural to have thoughts when meditating — just don’t invite them in for tea.

It can take considerable time in meditation before thinking finally runs down and the mind returns to its natural default position of clear open awareness. When that first happens, even if only momentarily, it’s likely to be intense and blissful, even earthshaking.

But just as nature abhors a vacuum, thoughts come roaring back with greater force in the wake of such an initial experience. Then the only course is to continue patiently letting go of thoughts again, not following them or provoking more thinking in response to them. This has been compared to shoveling away manure as it keeps piling up. It’s pretty much the essence of meditation practice.

Thoughts are difficult to control because consciousness is not actually separate from a thought. For all practical purposes we ARE each thought as it arises. There isn’t a separate awareness somewhere that can “watch” when a thought actually occurs. That’s why it’s so easy to get “lost in thought” and frustrating to try to get control of thoughts as they happen, one after another.

Despite how difficult it can be, if one persists in letting go of thoughts, moments of clear awareness eventually become more frequent and commonplace and a certain distance opens up between thought sequences. With long consistent practice that awareness becomes easier to find and return to. Then thoughts and patterns of thinking can be clearly seen, even if only in retrospect.

That doesn’t guarantee that negative thoughts such as egotism and anger won’t keep occurring in response to external events. But at the very least they can be let go of more quickly when they do come up. With practice, habitual thought patterns begin to lose their power over the mind.

IDENTIFY WITH NOTHING

Awareness is usually identified with an individual self, separate from everything else. But that belief is misplaced. What’s separate is the mental and physical phenomenon that make up an individual life. Awareness itself is neither separate or not separate, existent or non-existent. When it’s relaxed and turned inward it’s clear and open, devoid of characteristics.

Most thoughts revolve around the idea of a separate self. Although it’s merely an habitual pattern of thinking, without any ultimate reality, such a seeming separation is the cause of much suffering and distress.

Suzuki Roshi used to say that we should put our faith in nothing. I’d go even further and say that we should also “identify” with nothing. The way to identify with nothing is to simply let go of external concerns and return to our ever-present clear awareness. Although it’s nothing, it turns out to be the source or essence of everything, past, present and future — while still remaining transcendent and undefiled.

THE SWORD OF MENTAL DISCRIMINATION

The word Tarot can be translated as The Book. “Reading” the Tarot, usually refers to its use in fortunetelling, but the Tarot can also be read much like one might read a book — with an eye to gaining knowledge.

The Ace of Swords (Ace of Spades in a conventional deck), like all the aces in the Tarot cards, is the essence of its suit. Swords represent the element air, which symbolizes the mind that thinks and discriminates. It’s one of the traditional four basic elements, along with Coins (earth or matter), Cups (water or emotion) and Wands (fire or spirit).

I find it interesting that the thinking mind is represented by a sword, and a two-edged sword at that. The fact that the word “word” appears in “sword” is even noteworthy in the quirky way that puns and associations can take on illogical, parallel meanings in occult speculations.

Swords are by far the most malefic of the four suits. That the Tarot should view the intellect in a negative light is consistent with most mystical systems, especially meditation practice, where thinking and discriminating is seen as an impediment to insight.

DUALITY

Words are indeed like a two-edged sword in the way they cut up reality into concepts, which tend to be dualistic, especially when applied to ourselves and the world. Every duality is like a sword with two sides. Although opposites, they’re actually the same sword, or one thing.

Extremes such as egotism and self-love are the flip-side of insecurity and self-loathing. Both dissolve like clouds in the sky when the sun of clear awareness comes up.

As long as we attempt to understand reality with thinking and analysis we end up stuck in dualities like self and other, inner and outer, absolute and relative, one and many, and so forth. It’s a way of discriminating and organizing reality, but not reality itself — just inadequate ideas about it.

Thus it’s been said that we don’t function in reality, but a mental approximation of it. This trend is only accelerating with the advent of computers and the internet, that are extensions of our own mind.

 

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CLEAR LIGHT

ZAFROGZEN Posted on May 14, 2018 by zafrogzenNovember 29, 2021

                              “Know matter and Spirit to be both without beginning…”                                                                                                                 Bhagavadgita


Recently, as we sat sipping tea after a short one-day meditation retreat, my friend Hugh brought up the Tibetan after-death scenario, describing in some detail how at the moment of death awareness leaves the body through an opening at the crown of the head.

Without thinking, right off the the top of my head I said, “Awareness isn’t in the body. The body is in awareness.”

If the mind is cleared of thoughts and images then awareness is expansive and boundless like empty space and isn’t located anywhere in particular. The body and all its attendant sensory phenomena arise and disappear within that awareness, not the other way around.

This is a very attractive view because it implies that our individual awareness is transcendent and even eternal, or as some say, self-existent and solitary — in which case it precedes our birth and continues on after death, beyond the bonds of material existence. When our life-stream is seen flowing through a more ultimate timeless and peaceful existence we can adopt a degree of detachment.

Despite its usefulness in practice and the comfort it provides, such a view can easily become an artificial mental-arrangement imposed on a much more subtle reality. If the mind is really emptied, “inner” and “outer” are a single awareness — both are the same wondrous Mind. Objects and awareness are inseparable and everything is spontaneously arising in the present moment.

This brings me to the “Clear Light,” sometimes referred to as the White Light because it separates out into all the rainbow colors of creation. What follows will probably end up as a episode in my memoir.

One fine morning in the sixties, in the Haight Ashbury district of San Francisco, while sitting comfortably in the half lotus on my favorite chair, an old, faded gold, recliner, I took a good dose of LSD — which in those days was at least 250 micrograms,

In keeping with my radical idealism I never locked the door to my flat. People came and went. That day my old friend Gary appeared and sat down in the Mission Oak rocker a few feet in front of me. He held a bible on his lap.

Tall and skinny with granny glasses, straight shoulder-length brown hair and a full beard, Gary had a slow meditative manner that I always admired. The two of us frequently engaged in intense, metaphysical discussions regarding the meaning of life.

An experienced astronaut of inner space, Gary had reached a point of being more at home on LSD than in the ordinary world. When he was still living with his parents, they went away for the weekend and he and a friend decided to try LSD. They drove to Telegraph Avenue in Berkeley, teeming with longhaired, countercultural types, some of whom were hawking drugs on the street. They purchased twenty hits of acid from a disreputable looking guy who assured them it was “potent shit.”

Back at his parents house they each swallowed a capsule. After what seemed like a long time (but probably wasn’t) they decided their suspicions were justified and that they’d been ripped off. Still, they did feel something. Thinking that perhaps the LSD had been drastically cut, they divided it up and took the rest of it.

Two days spent unable to see anything but swirling energy patterns convinced them that the LSD had been potent shit after all. Gary was never quite the same.

When he came of draft age the Vietnam war was raging and he worried he’d be drafted into the Army. “If it was me,” I told him, “I’d just commit myself to Langley Porter Psychiatric Institute up the hill from here (the Haight). They can only keep you three days for observation and then they have to let you go. But after that the Army won’t touch you.”

“But what if I find out I really am crazy,” Gary said.

Sure enough, when he got out of Langley Porter and had escaped the draft, his mental state gradually deteriorated, despite group therapy.

Like many desperate people, as he experienced more mental distress Gary sought solace in a highly structured religion. That’s why he had a Bible with him that day in my flat and it’s why he started talking about Jesus in a manner typical of zealous converts.

I can’t remember exactly what he said, except that hearing about Jesus triggered something deep within me, probably from my childhood when my mother had made me attend church every Sunday.

As Gary went on about Jesus, I was suddenly transfixed by an ecstatic vision — not of Jesus, but of an overpowering luminous light, both inside and outside, located above and slightly back towards the crown of my head. As it radiated down through me, time and space and the world around me took shape right before my eyes, accompanied by a rapturous elation.

When things finally returned to what passes for normal on acid, Gary was gone. I left the flat, went down the stairs and walked out the front door. Funky Page street, the sunlight through the moist air, the hills in the distance, my body as I walked in tight-fitting homespun bell-bottom pants a girlfriend had made for me, everything was transformed by a beauty so exquisite that as I drank it in my senses joined together into a single voluptuous bliss that was to linger even after I had come down from the drug.

I’d been studying the Tibetan Book of the Dead, along with the other books in that series by Evans Wentz. The intense clear light of the Mind is said to be hard to stay with after one has left the body at death, but those who had practiced and trained during their lifetime could enter it and experience supreme enlightenment. Reading and hearing about it I felt blessed to have experienced even a little of that divine light. But to tell the truth, like a lot of experiences on LSD, when I’d come down and it was gone, I couldn’t find a path back to it.

The main benefit (and danger) of LSD is that it is so disruptive. It throws you out of normal habits of mind and repetitious mental ruts. For someone who is training and striving to break out of conditioned patterns it can be like other extreme spiritual methods — opening up new possibilities for creativity and growth. But it can also be devastating for a person whose grip on reality is tenuous to begin with.

Gary’s mental illness continued to worsen and he ended up living on the streets. One day when I visited my folks in Berkeley I came upon him standing in front of Cody’s Bookstore on Telegraph, filthy and stinking, drooling and staring up into space in a kind of catatonic trance. I took hold of him and hauled him to my parents house where I got him into the tub and showered him off.

It was heartbreaking to see someone who had once been an intelligent, fairly normal person, come to such a pass. For the first (and maybe last) time in my life I sincerely prayed to Jesus to please help one of his own who was in such acute distress.

After I’d cleaned him up I tried to bring him back to reality. But he was gone, unable to even talk coherently. Not knowing where else to turn I took him to the free clinic. They couldn’t do anything for him either and suggested admitting him to Napa State Mental Hospital where he would receive some treatment. As they took him away I felt a tremendous sense of helplessness.

I visited him at Napa several times. They gave him Thorazine and other potent drugs to get him to function better. After he was released I tried to take care of him but gave up when he wouldn’t cooperate with my stringent treatment plans. Before long he was back on the streets again. Sometimes he would appear at my parents front door in Berkeley, disheveled and confused, looking for me or my brother. My mother claimed that whenever she thought of him or mentioned his name he would show up.

Over time, with help from his parents and stays in hospitals and halfway houses, Gary was eventually able to cope to a very minimal degree. But he was a shadow of his former self. The last I heard he was living in a little trailer in the desert.

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FLOWER POWER

ZAFROGZEN Posted on March 9, 2018 by zafrogzenDecember 25, 2020

I often have a hit or two of marijuana (cannabis) from my vaporizer before doing hatha yoga and working out a few mornings each week. I’ve found it makes exercise much more interesting and enjoyable. In fact it goes well with any physical activity that doesn’t involve a lot of linear thinking, including sex — solo or otherwise. Marijuana is legendary for stimulating Shakti, the psychic/sexual energy cultivated in some yogic practices.

I recently threw the I Ching about my use of marijuana, which is starting to look increasingly like a habit. I got the hexigram The Army (number 7) with a change in the third place. That third line (read from the bottom up) essentially denotes a situation where someone other than the designated leader has taken command of the army and is, so to speak, in the driver’s seat. This indicates to me that perhaps I’m getting to a point where marijuana is using me more than I’m using it.

Some shamans warn that marijuana is a powerful spirit that will take you over in order to get you to propagate it. This is not unusual in the plant world. Obviously plants cannot move around much when it comes time to procreate and have sex with each other, so they often depend upon insects and animals to act as intermediaries. The most common method is through providing sweet honey for bees, who in the process of collecting it for nourishment carry pollen (sperm cells) from flower to flower.

Plants such as cannabis, that depend upon humans for procreation, take this process to another level. Opium poppies not only provide people with relief from pain, they are so addictive that the human host soon gives up everything else in order to do the plants bidding. Cannabis is much more benign but should still be treated with respect and some caution. Like with alcohol, I try to keep my marijuana use within bounds.

Despite that reticence I started propagating the plant early on. As a gardener it’s hard to resist a species that is so responsive to the hand of man.

It rewarded me generously. Although I was very cautious about growing marijuana when it was highly illegal and the penalties harsh (which only made the price go up), after it was made legal for “medical use” in California I enlarged my little greenhouse to what is still a relatively small size (about 10ft by 14ft). After drying and trimming my harvest I’d take a few pounds down to one of the dispensaries in San Francisco (usually in a “bad” neighborhood) and come out with thousands of dollars in cash — a wad of bills that would choke the proverbial horse. Some dispensaries actually dispensed with counting money and for expediency simply weighed the bills on their sensitive electronic scales instead.

Aside from the extra income, growing cannabis was a fascinating hobby. I read up on genetics and developed my own varieties, cloning outstanding specimens repeatedly — most notably “Moongoddess,” a potent Indica redolent of licorice and barnyards, which was especially stimulating sexually.

After about ten years that window began to close. With the housing crash and the resulting recession, so many folks started growing marijuana that the price dropped considerably. The medical market was flooded with bud and it became difficult for a small grower like myself to compete. With the recent legalization of cannabis in California that situation has only gotten worse (or better, depending on your point of view). Now I just grow a couple of organic plants every few years for my own enjoyment and watch with some trepidation as capitalism goes crazy over the possibilities of “cannabusiness.”

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LINES IN THE DUST

ZAFROGZEN Posted on January 1, 2018 by zafrogzenFebruary 14, 2021

Determined to live a life of simple asceticism, in the late sixties I retreated to an isolated shack beside a pond in the foothills of the Sierras (bereft of electricity and such distractions as televisions and phones). I only allowed myself the bare minimum of reading material — books I thought weighty enough to provide for continued study and reflection.

I selected the Bhagavadgita and Lin Yutang’s Wisdom of India and China (with translations of the Dhammapada, Lao Tse and excerpts from various Buddhist Sutras). I also took a King James Bible, which I would finally read from cover to cover.

But the one book I considered most essential was the I Ching or Book of Changes.

I’d been introduced to the I Ching a few years earlier while I was living in the Haight Ashbury. A friend took me to visit Dusty Street, a DJ at KMPX, the new FM radio station that was featuring the unique music just starting to emerge from the San Francisco scene — an energetic blend of folk and blues that (when amped up some) would eventually become known as psychedelic music or “acid rock.”

After passing the requisite joint and listening to the Jefferson Airplane’s first album, which she said was just being released, Dusty took a yellow hardcover from a bookshelf. “This is the Ching,” she said solemnly, “The Book of Changes, the oracle, the oldest book in the world.”

She handed me three pennies and showed me how to “throw” the I Ching. As directed, I shook the pennies in cupped hands and then gently slapped them down on the cover of the book. Dusty examined the pennies following each of six such throws and wrote down the indicated “lines” starting from the bottom — a ritual I was to repeat countless times thereafter.

She silently consulted the I Ching for a few moments before announcing the results, “The Caldron, with no changes.” Then she handed me the book, open to Hexagram 50, Ting/The Caldron. The Ting, a bronze food vessel used in ancient Chinese ceremonial meals, is said to represent the spiritual nourishment dispensed by sages and teachers — which is what the I Ching itself would come to mean to me.

Shortly after that initial encounter I purchased my own copy of the Wilhelm/Baynes translation, which would eventually be followed by several other translations. However, as is often the case with such things, that first version is still my favorite. It’s been criticized for taking a slightly Christian stance, but I think that only makes it more fathomable for Westerners like myself. Richard Wilhelm, a Christian missionary who fell under the spell of Chinese wisdom, translated the I Ching into German over the course of ten years under the guidance of a traditional Chinese sage, who died as soon as the translation was complete.

I started by reading it from beginning to end like any other book. I was intrigued to discover that in his introduction, Carl Jung, a close friend of Wilhelm, wrote that when he asked it about the forthcoming translation he also threw the Ting hexagram — a coincidence that cemented my high regard for that old Chinese book.

I still have my original, faded, yellow copy that’s starting to fall to pieces now, somewhat like me. I’ve been throwing it at least once a week, sometimes more, for over fifty years — until I’ve memorized all of the hexagrams and can consult the I Ching without referring to a text. I suspect it was originally an oral tradition that could be learned by arranging the two basic lines, yin (broken) and yang (unbroken), into eight possible “trigrams” (of three lines each) and 64 “hexagrams” (of six lines each), linked to numerous correspondences and interpretations. Over the centuries various sages composed commentaries, including Confucius.

Although it is first and foremost a book of wisdom, using it for divination is the easiest way to access that wisdom. Reading it straight through doesn’t grab you the way getting personally involved does.

I’m a diehard agnostic/skeptic when it comes to such matters and for many years my “readings” were often difficult to relate to, but as I’ve become better acquainted with the I Ching it has proven to be uncannily perceptive in many situations. I’ve acquired numerous personal associations around the individual hexagrams. For instance, in the Ting hexagram, the Caldron has come to represent the body sitting in meditation with legs tucked in and the “cooking” that takes place in one’s physical container with the application of time and heat (concentration) to provide spiritual nourishment.

Developing one’s own personal associations and interpretations is better than adopting someone else’s, especially for divination. It’s possible to use almost anything as a vehicle for channeling intuition. One could even come up with a system of divination based on something like random street signs and billboards. But the I Ching system is ideally suited for such purposes.

Plus there’s a wise old teacher in it as well.

I can’t remember for sure whether it was a dream, a vision, or an acid trip, but there I was, a lone monk walking along a rutted roadway somewhere in ancient China, when suddenly I was lifted up in a very cool, low-riding, fifties Chevy coupe, the same model as a rusting abandoned vehicle that rested on a hillside not far from my shack. Cruising blissfully I traveled over the countryside to a grassy knoll where a lone figure sat under a spreading oak tree. As I came closer I saw that he was drawing I Ching lines in the dust with an index finger. I strained to see what hexagram it was, sensing that there must be an important message for me there — that this person could be the I Ching itself.

Before I was able to make out what the lines might portend I suddenly found myself standing again at my shack by the pond.

I’ve come to view the I Ching as a teacher and trusted counselor that I can turn to, not just for guidance, but for insights into human nature and the path of meditation.

In divination it has proven to be remarkably reliable, but I nonetheless treat the advice it renders as just one of several opinions. A few years ago I needed to drill a new well on some property where I lived — an expensive undertaking in an area where many neighbors had spent thousands without finding water. I threw the I Ching about the prospect of drilling at several different locations and only one was definitely positive, with the hexagram of Abundance. Although that location would not have been my first choice, after talking to someone familiar with local geology and looking at other wells nearby, I decided to drill there. Sure enough we hit great water at just the perfect depth.

I hate to admit it, but I can think of several important situations where I ignored the I Ching’s judgement, or wasn’t strong enough to follow it, and have lived to regret it.

I prefer using plain old American pennies for throwing the I Ching. The Chinese coins with the square hole in the center, which are often recommended, strike me as contrived. Pennies are aptly symbolic, with heads (yang) on one side and in older coins an open temple for tails (yin) on the other side. Plus copper is a good conductor of energy. I’ve used the alternative yarrow stalk method but I don’t feel it works as well and it’s more labor intensive.

I get the best results when I consult the I Ching about a specific situation or course of action. I also throw it about people. When a new person enters my life the first throwing about them usually proves to be significant. However I try to keep in mind that the I Ching is a book of “Changes,” so nothing is cast in stone — quite the contrary. What appears negative at first can turn out to be positive later on. Change is the only thing we can really count on.

 

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SELF-DISCIPLINE

ZAFROGZEN Posted on May 23, 2017 by zafrogzenOctober 12, 2019

“The inferior man conquers others, the superior man conquers himself.”                                                                                                               Dhammapada


Most people are disciplined by outside forces and obligations such as job assignments, deadlines and appointments. It’s easier to be disciplined when your boss tells you what to do and your paycheck depends on it.

One of the joys of being a self-employed artist was setting my own schedule. Friends envied my apparent freedom from external demands. What they didn’t appreciate is that painting requires a surprising amount of plain old fashioned, often tedious, work, which must by necessity be self-generated. In order to accomplish anything I had to devise schedules and deadlines — even setting my alarm to get an early start on the day. In other words I was forced to develop self-discipline.

In my twenties I started the serious practice of meditation and yoga, both of which involve considerable self-discipline. Later I took up running and weight training. To some extent I’ve managed to maintain those disciplines into old age, especially meditation.

I also experimented with fasting, which builds self-discipline and makes it easier to regulate the intake of food in general. At one point I gave up meat, fast food, alcohol, caffeine, sugar and every other substance even remotely negative or sinful. I soon started to taste the extra sugar, salt and other additives in foods, which my taste buds had been too jaded to notice.

I even tried total celibacy for a couple of years. Sexual desire has been compared to a fire, and like a fire, when no new fuel is added it eventually dies down. That definitely makes life simpler, if less interesting.

For awhile I lived in a remote location without electricity, which made it easy to eliminate mental stimulants such as TV, phones and other electronics. It’s assumed that running water, appliances and the other gadgets of modern civilization save us time and make life easier. I found just the opposite to be the case. If you really want more time and space, simplify your life.

Self-discipline shouldn’t feel like self-punishment. It’s not necessary to be harsh with yourself and live a Spartan lifestyle devoid of pleasure. Life is actually more enjoyable and rewarding when it’s disciplined. It’s simple things like getting out of bed before sunrise to benefit from the early morning surge of awakening energy or being hungry enough when you sit down for a meal so that you really enjoy the food, but with enough self-control to avoid the negative consequences of overeating.

It turns out that my seemingly herculean efforts with austere practices like fasting, yoga and strenuous exercise regimens was just the easy stuff. The real challenge is simple everyday things that require self-awareness, as well as self-discipline — like paying more attention to others, abstaining from gossiping and bragging, and avoiding bickering with my wife on long car trips. Now we’re talking self-discipline!

I remind myself that only God is perfect (and sometimes I wonder about her) but any improvement we can make in ourselves, no matter how small, redounds to the benefit of the rest of the world.

One of the reasons I’m sitting here writing this is that my own self-discipline has been lagging of late. Just thinking about writing this post has already resulted in some improvement. I’m still far from being a paragon of discipline and self restraint but my ongoing efforts have at least prevented me from sliding into an even worse chaos of overindulgence and excess.

Having spent an inordinate amount of time and energy attempting to tame what looks to be an especially errant and unruly nature, I consider myself something of an authority on self-discipline.

What follows are some basic strategies I’ve learned through my own (ongoing) efforts at self-discipline, along with a little research.

WRITE IT DOWN

Have you ever written out a grocery list, and then when you got to the market you couldn’t find it, but you remembered most of the things on the list anyway? Writing something down imprints it on your brain.

That capacity can be used to good advantage. Making a list of things to do goes a long way towards their accomplishment, as does placing the list where it will be seen and checking off items as they are completed.

One of the most effective ways to lose weight is to simply keep a detailed list of everything you eat. For folks who are trying to save money by spending less, keeping a list of every cent that is spent has proven to be the best way to cut back on expenditures.

If there’s something you would really like to do but are having trouble getting to it, keeping a list of how much time, and when, is spent on the activity is a practical way to accomplish your goal — be it exercise, meditation  or some other laudatory endeavor,

Making a list works because it puts what you want to accomplish out in front of you. Putting it in front of you in reality is even better. When I was painting there were days when I just didn’t feel like it but I would force myself to go out to the studio and sit at my easel. I’d start having ideas and before long I was hard at work. Just physically getting to the gym or the desk is half the battle.

VISUALIZE IT

When making a list, it’s good to simultaneously visualize yourself doing the things you want to accomplish. A big part of the brain apparently doesn’t make a clear distinction between a real event and an imagined one. Just rehearsing something in your imagination is akin to actually doing it. But rather than just imagining the end result, envision yourself going through the necessary steps to achieve it.

Several studies have demonstrated that lying on the couch and visualizing yourself exercising has a remarkable amount of the very same benefits as actually exercising. Just imagining exercising a particular muscle twice a day for a few months has even been shown to increase that muscle’s mass and strength by an average of 30 percent of what actually doing the exercise in reality produces. That’s unbelievable until you consider that a lot of what goes on during any activity are internal changes such as the brain’s ability to communicate with muscles, hormone secretion, and even gene activation or suppression.

So although it’s better to actually do something, just imagining it is surprisingly effective. That’s why Olympic athletes spend time visualizing their competitive event over and over before actually performing. It gives them a head start.

The first thing in the morning is a good time to plan out the day and visualize what is to be done. When I began practicing yoga in the sixties I read all of the limited number of books on the subject that were available back then. After learning various exercises and postures I devised my own “routine” which I refined and ran through in my mind every morning while lying in bed. Rehearsing the routine in my imagination made it easier and more effective when I actually did it. Visualization has been a part of yoga and meditation practices for centuries, but it’s only recently, with the surge in neurological research, that such strategies have gained scientific credence.

WILLPOWER

Repeating a particular activity, even if only with the imagination, wires it more securely into the brain. Thus each attempt at self-discipline is worthwhile. There’s no such thing as failure unless one actually gives up and stops trying. Every attempt at self-discipline is a step towards accomplishing it. Even just thinking about it is a step in the right direction.

I started smoking at a young age. After ten years of smoking a pack-a-day, I decided to quit, but it took a year of concerted effort to finally stop completely. I was rolling my own by then and every time I’d decide to quit smoking, I’d ceremoniously empty my tobacco tin into the creek. By nightfall I’d be down on my knees in abject humiliation pawing through the trash for butts. Finally the repeated attempts to quit began to outweigh the acquired conditioning to smoke. Eventually I was able to easily go without cigarettes.

Research has shown that willpower is like a muscle that can be strengthened by repeatedly exercising it. Each attempt, even if it fails, is important for building self-discipline. Every time you force yourself to go to the gym or eat something healthy rather than junk food, you’re changing your brain and how you think.

Like a muscle, willpower also gets tired with overuse. That’s why it’s difficult to resist that drink after a hard day at work. Even self-discipline and willpower need a rest sometimes. It’s like training an animal, one should not be too tough nor too slack, but persistent and consistent.

The importance of willpower and self-discipline cannot be overestimated. It’s an inner strength and ability to stick to decisions that’s essential to success in any undertaking and can overcome addictions, procrastination and laziness.

Although most people would agree that willpower is important, few realize that it can be consciously cultivated and developed. With practice of self-discipline the brain begins to change ingrained patterns of thought and the subconscious starts to help with regulating and overcoming impulses rather than bringing them on.

HABITS

We rely on habit much more than we realize. For instance when first learning to drive a car we had to consciously think about each action, but once we’ve practiced enough driving becomes automatic and effortless. That’s because driving and all the actions it entails is a conditioned habit.

The part of our brain that makes conscious decisions, while obviously vital, is just a sliver of our overall mental activity. Our brains and bodies come equipped with a good deal of built-in pre-programing for the control of basic bodily functions such as breathing and digestion. But most of our functions and abilities are learned and programed into our brains by repetition until they’ve become automatic and unconscious. A simple act such as walking across the room, which we can do without thinking about it, requires so many rapid, sophisticated calculations that if we had to consciously decide every action we took we’d be frozen in place, unable to move, .

In psychology the sub-conscious is traditionally viewed as the seat of repressed desires and powerful archetypal forces festering just below the surface, over which we have little control. I think a more accurate view is to see the subconscious as like a very sophisticated computer that has been programmed by repeated thoughts and behaviors to respond in predictable habitual ways — which fortunately can also be reprogrammed with concerted effort.

When a behavior becomes a habit through repetition and conditioning it stops requiring our conscious direction and instead functions on auto-pilot. How many times have you done a repetitive act like locking the front door or turning off the stove, only to get halfway down the street and wonder if you’d done so? That’s because those simple tasks have become automatic and unless the act is consciously noted the brain doesn’t feel the need to record the event.

The enduring character of habits is crucial. Even though we don’t practice such things as swimming or typing, those conditioned patterns can still be brought up when needed. I couldn’t tell you where any of the keys on the typewriter are, but I can still sit down and type up a storm without thinking about it. Almost everything we do, from riding a bike to shooting pool, and probably even our perception of “reality,” would be impossible without that ability to record and repeat habitual patterns.

The good news, when it comes to eliminating bad habits, is that once they are formed and imprinted on our brain they can be replaced or changed over time, with perseverance and mindfulness. The bad news is that they rarely ever completely disappear. Even when a habit is overcome we must still be on our guard lest it take hold again. Repetition and time are crucial factors in eliminating or adopting habits. It’s said that it only takes about two months of repetition to make something into a habit.

Getting rid of a long term, ingrained habit like smoking can be difficult because the brain will resist changing a habit pattern in favor of what it has been programmed to do. The physical addiction to nicotine is said to disappear after a few weeks but the habitual patterns of behavior keep kicking in. The part of the brain that stores habits doesn’t distinguish between bad and good habits, so if you have a bad one, it’s always lurking there. Unless you consciously fight a habit, the conditioned pattern will unfold automatically.

THE MOMENT OF TRUTH

A crucial moment always arises, when one is confronted with an urge to indulge a bad habit. By paying close attention it’s possible to notice when those moments of choice arrive and remember that one can either reinforce the habit by indulging it or resist it and weaken its hold. That’s a good time to pause and take a deep, breath. Depending on the strength of the urge, it’s possible at that moment to choose to do something else, perhaps substitute a more benign habit. Usually the urge will subside in a short time if the habit is resisted.

If one does succumb to the temptation to indulge in whatever habit one is trying to resist it’s important not to give up completely or beat up on oneself over it. The more one fights a bad habit the less satisfying it will be if it is given in to, which will weaken its hold. Eventually, the repetitive attempts to alter the habit will accumulate and overpower the habitual pattern.

Many habits are combined with other behaviors, involving cues or triggers that kick in the need to satisfy the habit. The classic example is of Pavlov’s dog which would start salivating whenever a cue that was connected to getting food, such as the sound of a bell, would occur. It’s at that point that the habit can either be reinforced or a new habit connection made.

For a smoker, that first cup of coffee in the morning usually demands a cigarette. Linking habits like that increases their power, but that linkage can also be used to replace bad habits with something less harmful. Instead of a cigarette one could eat a banana with that first cup in the morning. At first it won’t feel right. But if it’s repeated often enough, before long the banana will become the habit and if there are no bananas one will have to go looking for one.

If the bad habit is replaced with another more acceptable habit, which satisfies the same urge, the bad habit eventually will lose it’s power. This means changing a normal routine, which can feel uncomfortable and awkward at first.

When trying to establish a new, more beneficial habit, connecting it with an existing habit will facilitate its adoption. For instance, with that first cup of coffee or tea in the morning, instead of surfing the internet, one could make it a time to write out and visualize what is to be done that day. Through the association of one habit with another the brain establishes neural connections that double the strength of both habits.

Habits are also frequently linked with certain times of the day, which act as triggers for the habit to kick in. It’s been shown that if we eat a meal at the same time every day, when that time rolls around, while we might not start drooling like a dog, we do secrete digestive juices and saliva in anticipation. Linking up a pre-dinner cocktail or a desert afterwards can quickly become a habit, as can doing some exercises beforehand or taking a walk after dinner.

Obviously some habits are easier to adopt, than others. Anything that tastes or feels especially good can easily become a habit. The most seductive and immediately pleasurable habits such as sugar, alcohol and addictive drugs, as well as procrastination and laziness, turn out to be negative if continued. Habits like exercise and meditation which can be challenging in the beginning are productive of pleasure later on, producing a host of positive responses and pleasurable feelings brought on by the internal production of powerful natural drugs, such as endorphins and dopamine, that stimulate a cascade of beneficial mental and physical responses.

KEY HABITS

When people start exercising, they also change other, unrelated patterns in their lives, often unknowingly. Research has shown that people who begin exercising also start eating better and become more productive at work. They indulge in other bad habits less and say they feel less stressed. “Exercise spills over,” says James Prochaska, a University of Rhode Island researcher. “There’s something about it that makes other good habits easier.”

If there’s any cure-all it would be exercise. It not only makes one stronger and healthier, it alleviates many otherwise intractable mental issues such as anxiety, depression and poor self-esteem.

Exercise is a key habit that triggers widespread change.

Another key habit is meditation. Just a few minutes every morning sitting up straight, relaxing, and focusing on what is being sensed at each moment, while letting go of rumination on the past and future and the ceaseless flow of discursive thought, has proven to boost willpower by stimulating the areas of the brain that govern decision making and regulate emotions. Research has shown that the effects of meditation are incredibly far reaching and positive.

A key habit that is often overlooked, and one that I’m especially deficient in, is neatness. Just making the bed in the morning has a positive effect on the entire day. A work space that is organized and neat greatly improves mood and productivity.

Neatness is also conducive to mindfulness, another key habit. I tend to concentrate so intensely on whatever project I’m working on that I shut out everything else and stop noticing where I’m putting things or what I’m doing with my body. This results in a lot of wasted time looking for tools, in addition to physical issues from holding uncomfortable positions for too long.

I’m always reminded of an old master craftsman who did some work on our house. He moved at a steady unhurried pace and everything was returned immediately to the proper place in his toolbox. At first I worried he was moving so slow that it would cost me a bundle at his hourly wage. But he accomplished way more in less time than someone who rushes about, scattering tools and wasting energy in unnecessary motion.

SWEET LIMITATION

In the I Ching, the ancient Taoist book of wisdom and divination, the Hexagram that comes closest to self-discipline (other than the constant exhortation to “persevere”) is Limitation. The hexagram’s three lower lines, or trigram, symbolize a lake, while the upper trigram represents water.

A lake occupies a limited space and if more water flows in, it overflows. Thus it shows the necessity of setting limits, which is seen as the backbone of virtue and correct conduct. To voluntarily impose limits on one’s activities and desires is analogous to the Taoist ideal of moderation and the “golden mean” between extremes such as overindulgence and severe self-denial.

The I Ching cautions that “galling limitation” must not be persevered in. If we go to far in imposing limitations on our own nature, that would be injurious. Limits must be set even on limitation.

This is a highly refined form of self discipline — which can be surprisingly difficult. It’s often easier to give up a pleasurable habit entirely than it is to be moderate with it. If something is enjoyable it’s natural to feel that more of it would be even better. Most of my own “addictions” such as a glass of wine with dinner, a couple squares of dark chocolate after breakfast and even the occasional hit of marijuana, are harmless and even beneficial — in moderation. But if they are consumed in unlimited quantities the effects cease to be pleasant and can turn negative. Almost everything, sleep, work, and especially food, is enjoyable and beneficial when limited but harmful when carried too far.

The lower (inner) trigram, lake, in the hexagram of limitation also represents “joy” and the upper (outer) trigram, water, symbolizes “danger.” For someone given to extremes, to be able to enjoy pleasurable habits while still being mindful of the dangers in overdoing them, requires continuous mindfulness. Fortunately, even moderation can become habitual if persevered in long enough.

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DEATH

ZAFROGZEN Posted on April 8, 2017 by zafrogzenDecember 16, 2018

The other day I found a lump in my left testicle. Big enough to almost feel like a third nut. As usual I was unable to get to a doctor right away. Such things always occur on weekends or when I’m on vacation.

I don’t know that I’d qualify as a hypochondriac. I rarely worry about my health during normal times. But when something like this comes up I can’t resist thinking the worst, the most extreme scenarios. I imagine being rolled on a gurney into surgery with my family gathered around for the last moments. I invariably wish I’d cleaned up my studio and thrown out the stack of unfinished or substandard paintings so that no one would be burdened with deciding what to do with them after I’m gone.

If positive or negative thoughts really had the power some folks ascribe to them I’d have been dead long ago.

As I’ve grown older I try to think of death more often. It seems like a good thing to finally come to terms with in one’s seventy-fifth year. In some traditions meditating with dead bodies in charnel grounds or graveyards is highly recommended. I remember, when I was quite young, someone at a zen center suggested meditating on death. “What a downer,” I thought.

The only time I can seriously get into the fact of death is when a health issue arises and I go off on my negative imaginings. I’ve actually come to savor those moments. Nothing focuses the mind like facing the fact of one’s eventual demise.

The inevitability of death is rarely taken seriously. If it was, most of us would be paralyzed with anxiety and unable to function. It appears that nearly everyone is operating on the assumption that death doesn’t really exist for them. This could be the result of massive repression — or a subconscious, intuitive sense that death is not the entire story.

Birth and death, like before and after, past and future, can only exist in the present moment. Not anywhere else. That’s where birth and death both occur.

People wonder where they “go” after they die. Where else is there?

POSTSCRIPT

I just got a call from the doctor after going in last week and having an ultra-sound. The lump in my testicle turns out to be a harmless ball of fluid that can build up there — not uncommon. I’d already researched it on the web so I had a pretty good idea what it was. That information was a mixed blessing, since it cut short my serious meditation on the inevitability of death — pretty intense and productive while it lasted. But I’m sure the opportunity will arise again.

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THE MAGIC FLUTE

ZAFROGZEN Posted on February 23, 2017 by zafrogzenJanuary 25, 2021

Bamboo is admired (and feared) for it’s tenacity. It’s steel-like roots can even penetrate concrete. In fierce winds it simply bends rather than breaking — a model of perseverance under pressure.

It is actually a giant, primitive  grass, a holdover from an earlier prehistoric period. Although each stalk or “culm” is distinct from the others, they are all one interconnected plant under the ground. They might appear to be separate individuals — but not far beneath the surface they are living just one life.

Bamboo has many practical uses. The tender shoots can be eaten and the hard wood-like stalks are used to construct everything from fences to flooring.

It can also make music. Since earliest times bamboo has been fashioned into flutes of various types. In many traditional cultures the flute was a favorite instrument for young men out courting. There is nothing so attractive, and penetrating, as the solitary sound of a flute on a moonlit night. The god Krishna is pictured holding a flute to the side of his lips, standing with one leg causally crossed in front of the other. It’s said that the sound of his flute was irresistible to the gopi (cowherding) girls he favored.

MAKING MY OWN MUSIC

What prompted me to think of constructing a flute from a length of bamboo I’d found was the lack of electricity in my little hermitage in the foothills and my consequent inability to play music on a radio or phonograph. Not that I really missed those “conveniences” but I did miss music and I was excited by the prospect of making my own with an improvised bamboo flute.

When I spied a thin steel rod connecting the radiator to the firewall on an antique pickup truck, one of the old rusting vehicles that dotted the landscape in the vicinity of my shack by the pond, I immediatly thought of the lovely white-hot coals that the narrow fire chamber in my cook stove produced.

I took the rod from the old truck and filed one end to a sharp point. Then I sawed off a length of bamboo and reamed out the thin nodes that separated the inner chambers, leaving one end closed. After heating the steel rod in coals until the tip was glowing red, I pressed the hot point on one side of the bamboo near the closed end. The rod burned smoothly through, emitting a satisfying sizzling noise and a light, fragrant smoke.

Holding the piece of bamboo to one side I blew down into the hole with pursed lips. Then I blew some more. I blew and blew. After a few hours, when I was about ready to give up, a deep reedy sound suddenly flowed out of the flute with my breath.

Ecstatic, I wandered about for the rest of the day blowing that one low mournful note, a sound much like an owl would make.

One by one I burned four finger-holes along the top of the flute and finally one for my thumb on the bottom side, adjusting the pitch as I went along. Soon I was tootling happily around, composing simple melodies which became “variations” as I tried to repeat them.

THE SHAKUHACHI

Later, after I’d made a few of those side-blown or “transverse” flutes, I tried my hand at shakuhachi, which are blown from the end like a clarinet but without the reed and mouthpiece — just the open end of the bamboo with the front side cut at an angle to make a sharp edge to blow against, similar to blowing on a bottle to get a sound.

Although they can be constructed in a variety of lengths and diameters, producing deeper or higher sounds, the shakuhachi is named for its most popular length of one and an eighth “shaku,” or just over 21 inches. They were developed in medieval Japan by Zen Buddhist monks who formed a sect all their own — wandering mendicants called “Komuso,” or “priests of emptiness and nothingness,” who wore baskets over their heads as a form of self-effacement on their begging rounds and practiced “Suizen,” or “blowing zen.”

Focusing on sound is an ancient method of meditation. It is especially favored in zen, with its emphasis on the present moment. Avalokiteshvara, or Kwan Yin (one who hears), is said to have experienced great enlightenment reflecting on sound, along with the question “who hears?”

After making my first shakuhachi flute I soon learned why it originated as a way of meditation practice. Its main feature is the quality of the sound produced and the intense concentration necessary to bring forth any sound at all, much less the vast range of subtle nuances that are possible with these simple instruments.

I discovered that the shakuhachi was almost impossible to play without a quiet mind. But after prolonged meditation it seemed to almost play itself, my body and the flute forming one unified whole, with the sound coming from deep in my gut and spontaneous music flowing out with surprising quality and depth.

But if I was distracted and lost in thought the shakuhachi refused to play along.

JAMMIN’ WITH THE BIRDS

When I drove around on my landscape painting expeditions I kept an eye out for bamboo. The shakuhachi is ideally made from the thick root-end of Japanese bamboo, which can be difficult to find.

On one of my trips I stopped to investigate some bamboo growing beside a tiny stream. It was the typical bamboo usually found growing in California, more like corn stalks than the hard wooden culms of oriental bamboo. However, as I peered into the small grove an odd stalk caught my eye. Almost completely black in color, it looked to have broken off and died long ago. But the root end was hard and intact. I carefully dug it out of the ground. There was not enough for a full length shakuhachi — only about a foot of good wood, with a few rings of root to give it thickness and a nice taper.

When I returned to the foothills I shaped the small piece of strange bamboo into a short flute. After I’d finished burning the holes and I blew into it, the timbre of the notes astonished me. Shakuhachi are normally rather low in pitch and their music is slow and haunting, almost mournful at times. But the notes fairly flew out of this shorter version, in light and joyous birdlike trills.

I’d already made several shakuhachi and each one had it’s own personality. Some seemed to have more music in them than others. But this small black flute was something else entirely. The quality of the sound and the music that flowed effortlessly out of it was truly magical.

One day I meandered downstream playing my new little flute. It was springtime and carpets of wildflowers were appearing everywhere. At a place where the creek flowed through a grove of tall Digger Pines, I stopped and sat on a huge log. The sound of my flute soared up exuberantly in every direction.

Before long I noticed that birds were landing in the pines above me and chirping merrily along with my flute. The surrounding trees filled with hundreds of birds, all singing at the tops of their little lungs, a delirious chorus in a multitude of different chirping voices.

RENUNCIATION

When an old friend visited me and heard the sound of the new flute he was naturally entranced. He was a musician and could play shakuhachi fairly well. He deeply desired that little flute.

I was trying, at the time, to live the life of a renunciate, giving up all attachment. I never locked my door when I left home and always gave what little extra cash I had to panhandlers. I tried not to desire anything that others had and to only accept things that were freely given, without aggressively seeking anything for myself. I often sold my watercolors for less than I could have gotten and deliberately didn’t promote myself or make much of what I did.

So, of course I felt compelled to give my beloved flute to my friend when he departed.

A few months later, when I saw him again, I hesitantly asked about the little shakuhachi I’d given him. “Oh, I forgot it somewhere,” he said casually.

I kept my disappointment to myself but the saying, “Pearls before swine” came to mind.

Not long after that I managed to make a longer, mellow-toned shakuhachi that also had some natural music in it, although nothing compared to the one I’d given away.

Another friend came by and when he heard the sound of my playing he deeply desired that shakuhachi. He’d never played one before, so I told him that if he could get a sound out of it he could have it. He spent the entire day blowing and blowing, until he was exhausted, but he never got a single sound. So I declined to give it to him.

A few weeks later I caught that same shakuhachi in a car door while hitchhiking and shattered it.

POSTSCRIPT

After I moved back to the city I continued to make shakuhachi for awhile. I soon discovered that those random-length unrefined flutes I’d been making were looked down on as “backyard shakuhachi,” not worth playing. When I visited one well-known western shaukuhachi player he at first commented on the beauty of the bamboo and the quality of the sound of my flute, but when he took it and attempted to play it himself he frowned and dismissed it as “not in tune.”

I tried making shakuhachi in the prescribed way, with a smooth coating of resin on the inside bore and an inlay of ebony on the mouthpiece, but the results were not worth the trouble and I soon lost interest in flutes altogether.

Now, decades later, with a nice grove of Madake bamboo growing outside my meditation hut, I’ve started to fool around with shakuhachi again. After a little research I discovered that the unrefined shakuhachi I’d been making are called jinashi (unfilled) for their lack of a precise resin-coated bore and the necessary two-piece construction that characterize most modern shakuhachi.

Many jinashi shakuhachi are said to be “in tune with themselves” and not meant for playing with other instruments. Apparently, as shakuhachi began to be used in performances with koto and shamisen, rather than for solo meditation, they had to become uniform and tuned exactly the same. But a certain quality and essence was lost in the process. Now, at least in some circles, the old style jinashi shakuhachi are coming back into fashion.

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